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Saturday, April 15, 2006
April 14thThis is what happens when it is a holiday and i have the enthu, and it is April 14th - Tamil New Years Day:-)
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Tuesday, April 11, 2006
Destiny
(I found this when I was cleaning up stuff..I guess I wrote this some two years back when I was bored to death in the united states. It is funny reading stuff you have written years ago. I am tempted to make a few changes, but I am lazy too and as usual the lazy part of me wins :-). So here is it in the as-is state...)
Today is our first anniversary. Our marriage was not easy – I am a Hindu. He is a Christian. My parents would not relent. His parents were stubborn too. I had almost lost hope. What if they never agree? What if we are never able to convince them? Should we marry in a temple? a church? Though these questions kept coming to my mind, I knew I could never marry without my parents consent. Sometimes I used to dream of me sitting on my father’s lap and Robert tying the knot. It was just a dream, but still it would bring a smile to my face.
Ding dong! Ding dong! I wake up startled by the sound of the clock.
Robert will be back in an hour, and here I am thinking of the past – useless past. I decide to think about something nice and interesting – the day I first met Robert.
He just bumped on to me, poured all of the hot steaming coffee on me. In the process, I broke the juice glass I was carrying. I froze for a moment – was my hip bone broken or something? I gave him an angry glare.
'God has given you two eyes, why don’t you use them? '
'I thought somebody called me, and so looked back. Din’t notice you were coming. Sorry.'
I looked at him for a second. I thought he was not faking. He was genuinely sorry.
'It is ok.' I said, wondering if the coffee stains would go away from my beautiful cotton salwar.
He seemed to be a regular at the food court. We met again few days later. I din’t recognize him immediately. But I thought he kept staring at me, and looked back. And then I remembered. But I continued walking.
'Mam, Are you still angry with me???''…he came running behind me. And that is how the conversation started.
It is interesting to note how relationships develop. Like a child keeping small steps when learning to walk, our friendship grew stronger by the day. In fact, I should thank ramya. If not for her, I might not have met Robert.
It was a Sunday evening. I was playing solitaire on my computer, and that is when my room mates suggested that we should probably be doing something more interesting. We decided to do some general chatting on the net. What started as a time pass, became a part of our daily routine. And there was a reason behind it – Ramya. How can someone be so gullible and inncocent??? We got introduced through chat - ofcourse, i dont use my ream name when I chat. For her, I was Prem. I knew it was probably not right, but ramya was starting to like me. She used to tell me everything. Poor thing, I thought she did not have many friends. My room mates and myself, we were enjoying this - every bit of it.
It was her birthday that day. She said she would treat me and we decided to meet at the food court. I gave her information on what I would be wearing. My room mates and myself were waiting for that evening - to see that poor girl searching for her chat friend in the food court crowd. Anyway, she never came or atleast we never saw anyone wearing a pink top and a blue jean waiting near the entrance. May be she was scared. I never chatted with her after that. That day, I din't get to meet ramya, but I met Robert!
'I will be done in a few minutes dear. I was thinking about the first day we met.'
'hmm...u were day dreaming! Incidentally, even I was thinking about it when I was driving. You know sapna, there is a special person, if not for him I would not have met you. Yes his name is Prem - we were chat friends. Poor fellow, I had asked him to come and he believed me....how could someone...'
Robert continued talking. But I never heard what he said. His words got lost in my thoughts. I just went blank and kept staring at him - It has been a year now and we never knew!!!
Fortunately or un fortunately, destiny it seemed to be.
¶ 9:53 PM 2 comments
(I found this when I was cleaning up stuff..I guess I wrote this some two years back when I was bored to death in the united states. It is funny reading stuff you have written years ago. I am tempted to make a few changes, but I am lazy too and as usual the lazy part of me wins :-). So here is it in the as-is state...)
Today is our first anniversary. Our marriage was not easy – I am a Hindu. He is a Christian. My parents would not relent. His parents were stubborn too. I had almost lost hope. What if they never agree? What if we are never able to convince them? Should we marry in a temple? a church? Though these questions kept coming to my mind, I knew I could never marry without my parents consent. Sometimes I used to dream of me sitting on my father’s lap and Robert tying the knot. It was just a dream, but still it would bring a smile to my face.
Ding dong! Ding dong! I wake up startled by the sound of the clock.
Robert will be back in an hour, and here I am thinking of the past – useless past. I decide to think about something nice and interesting – the day I first met Robert.
He just bumped on to me, poured all of the hot steaming coffee on me. In the process, I broke the juice glass I was carrying. I froze for a moment – was my hip bone broken or something? I gave him an angry glare.
'God has given you two eyes, why don’t you use them? '
'I thought somebody called me, and so looked back. Din’t notice you were coming. Sorry.'
I looked at him for a second. I thought he was not faking. He was genuinely sorry.
'It is ok.' I said, wondering if the coffee stains would go away from my beautiful cotton salwar.
He seemed to be a regular at the food court. We met again few days later. I din’t recognize him immediately. But I thought he kept staring at me, and looked back. And then I remembered. But I continued walking.
'Mam, Are you still angry with me???''…he came running behind me. And that is how the conversation started.
It is interesting to note how relationships develop. Like a child keeping small steps when learning to walk, our friendship grew stronger by the day. In fact, I should thank ramya. If not for her, I might not have met Robert.
*******
It was a Sunday evening. I was playing solitaire on my computer, and that is when my room mates suggested that we should probably be doing something more interesting. We decided to do some general chatting on the net. What started as a time pass, became a part of our daily routine. And there was a reason behind it – Ramya. How can someone be so gullible and inncocent??? We got introduced through chat - ofcourse, i dont use my ream name when I chat. For her, I was Prem. I knew it was probably not right, but ramya was starting to like me. She used to tell me everything. Poor thing, I thought she did not have many friends. My room mates and myself, we were enjoying this - every bit of it.
It was her birthday that day. She said she would treat me and we decided to meet at the food court. I gave her information on what I would be wearing. My room mates and myself were waiting for that evening - to see that poor girl searching for her chat friend in the food court crowd. Anyway, she never came or atleast we never saw anyone wearing a pink top and a blue jean waiting near the entrance. May be she was scared. I never chatted with her after that. That day, I din't get to meet ramya, but I met Robert!
******
'You are not yet ready. Dont you want to go to the movie today??''I will be done in a few minutes dear. I was thinking about the first day we met.'
'hmm...u were day dreaming! Incidentally, even I was thinking about it when I was driving. You know sapna, there is a special person, if not for him I would not have met you. Yes his name is Prem - we were chat friends. Poor fellow, I had asked him to come and he believed me....how could someone...'
Robert continued talking. But I never heard what he said. His words got lost in my thoughts. I just went blank and kept staring at him - It has been a year now and we never knew!!!
Fortunately or un fortunately, destiny it seemed to be.
¶ 9:53 PM 2 comments
Saturday, April 08, 2006
Dreamz Unlimited...
Well, who does not dream??? School days, we want to get good marks, get the group of our choice, get into a good college. When in college, we dream of joining a reputed firm, good salary :-). For some, it is about writing GRE/CAT - going abroad for higher education. Once we start working, we want to climb up the corporate ladder, big fat pay packages, buy a car, house, start a company/business etc etc. We then dream of getting married to someone who is compatible, same wavelength, nice family, and satisfying numerous other criteria. If we get caught in the love web, we want to marry the person we love and wish our parents would agree. Then we need to save for future - for our kids - education, marriage etc etc. As we grow older, we wish our kids would do well in college, get a good job, marry, settle down and he happy. Then it is time for grand children.
Our life in essence is made of these small and big desires - probably that is what makes us going and makes life interesting. As R~ says, it is probably not about buying a house in Jayanagar bangalore and setting down, there is something more to it, but until we find that out, these little wishes definitely give us something to look forward to and plan our present for the future. There is definitely a joy in having these small goals and trying to move towards it. It could be the desire to learn guitar, pottery, glass painting or it could be as big as starting a firm, bungee jumping ( well, s~ wants to do it some day! sigh! I am worried now itself) - we accomplish only what we dream!
OK, so much for a saturday afternoon, I guess, i will just go ahead and dream of what I could do once S~ comes back from delhi - watch a movie perhaps or maybe cook something real nice and stay at home. But u know the problem if u r married - we are two peas in a pod and you just cant dream alone - what if i dream of going to a movie and he just wants to be at home and watch some cricket match (God! do they play cricket 364 days a year???). So, i guess i will drop the dreams for now and just take a nap. zzzzzzzz.... ¶ 1:03 PM 0 comments
Well, who does not dream??? School days, we want to get good marks, get the group of our choice, get into a good college. When in college, we dream of joining a reputed firm, good salary :-). For some, it is about writing GRE/CAT - going abroad for higher education. Once we start working, we want to climb up the corporate ladder, big fat pay packages, buy a car, house, start a company/business etc etc. We then dream of getting married to someone who is compatible, same wavelength, nice family, and satisfying numerous other criteria. If we get caught in the love web, we want to marry the person we love and wish our parents would agree. Then we need to save for future - for our kids - education, marriage etc etc. As we grow older, we wish our kids would do well in college, get a good job, marry, settle down and he happy. Then it is time for grand children.
Our life in essence is made of these small and big desires - probably that is what makes us going and makes life interesting. As R~ says, it is probably not about buying a house in Jayanagar bangalore and setting down, there is something more to it, but until we find that out, these little wishes definitely give us something to look forward to and plan our present for the future. There is definitely a joy in having these small goals and trying to move towards it. It could be the desire to learn guitar, pottery, glass painting or it could be as big as starting a firm, bungee jumping ( well, s~ wants to do it some day! sigh! I am worried now itself) - we accomplish only what we dream!
OK, so much for a saturday afternoon, I guess, i will just go ahead and dream of what I could do once S~ comes back from delhi - watch a movie perhaps or maybe cook something real nice and stay at home. But u know the problem if u r married - we are two peas in a pod and you just cant dream alone - what if i dream of going to a movie and he just wants to be at home and watch some cricket match (God! do they play cricket 364 days a year???). So, i guess i will drop the dreams for now and just take a nap. zzzzzzzz.... ¶ 1:03 PM 0 comments
